I Got My Eyes Fixed....

I’ve been laid up all week, icing, sleeping, and nothing else. I temporarily can’t see for shit, and have limited energy, so I’ve been spending most of the week in bed, in silence…talking and listening to God.

 

“God people” used to bug me out; I deemed them intellectual weaklings…sheep drinking up the opiate of the masses. But secretly, I was jealous that they could trust in something so completely as to feel peace, cuz I couldn’t trust shit and peace gave me anxiety; I was habituated to fear, chaos and pain.

 

(On an aside, some “God people” ARE sheep (no pun intended) but that has nothing to do with their faith)

 

Point is, I was always too cynical, too scared, and actually too much of a sheep myself to admit that I yearned to surrender to, and merge with, something greater than my own thinking mind.

 

When I finally decided to give God a chance, I spent years “in the desert”.

 

Like most, I thought spirituality was something I “did”; it involved “methods” “practices”, and “systems”… it looked a certain way, so I thought I had to replicate that visual.

 

But this was the same backwards thinking- mind bullshit that was the source of my suffering in the first place.

 

To save you time, here’s what spirituality REALLY is…self love.

 

That’s it.

 

God is love and when you love yourself, you and God are One.

 

But to have self love, you first gotta have self acceptance, and this is the path least taken…because it’s fucking terrible.

 

It hurts. It’s scary. And there’s a very real risk that when you return to self acceptance and self love, your whole life might blow up.

 

And hopefully it does, because the life you’ve cobbled together from unresolved childhood traumas, the limiting beliefs shoved down your throat before you could say no, and the inherited fears shackled to your ankles is really no life at all: it’s an automation of a survival program.

 

The self acceptance part is “the work” and self love is the result.

 

You don’t have to “get” self love. You ARE love.

 

You don’t need to become more “spiritual”; you ARE spirit.

 

And you don’t need to “find God”; God IS.

 

The only work to be done on your part is to SEE the difference between your automation and yourSelf.

 

The only problem any of us have is an identity problem, which can be resolved with an open mind, a little learning, practice, and the smallest bit of faith.

 

It’s not rocket science, and in fact, you’re wired to wake up from your identity crisis just as surely as you were wired for the crisis in the first place; it’s a perfect, albeit misunderstood, design.

 

So if “spirituality” is calling to you, don’t get it twisted: God is right where you are, waiting for you to remember who the fuck you really are.

 

And there are others ready to help you remember, myself included.

 

Ready when you are, Sister.

 

Love

Steph

 

P.S. The Soul Centered Self program was made to make the "waking up" process less painful, confusing and long. Don't buy into anything that ANYONE tells you about the spiritual path and waking up, myself included. But DO seek out what you can from the sources that resonate with you...that's your Soul guiding you to collect the breadcrumbs you need to line your own path. If my words resonate with you, then there's something here for your journey. And I'm here to give. The next cohort starts at the end of January. Book a consult and let's discover if NOW is the time.